Almost 18 man, almost 18.

This past month the thought of my Birthday nearing has come and gone but I can't seem to accept it. Past years I would've been jumping around, all hyped up for the event of my Bday in about 2 months before my actual Bday was there. Now that it's a few weeks away however I rather not have it.

I actually told my mother I started to feel old yesterday, causing her to give me an unamused face, can't blame her XD.
But maybe I'm just ignoring the facts because;
1) I feel old
2) My parents want me to hold a party but I feel awkward doing so
3) I could care less about having to spend a night with my family downstairs
4) There's not much I would even want as gifts.

Sure, money is nice, but I have this thing for material stuff, I sound egoistical talking about gifts right? But whatever, these have always played a major part for me, to make me look forward to it, since I have rarely been let down. I suppose I got what I wanted so far.

But then I saw the Valve store and decided on a few small things....that team RED mug rules XD and the T shirts =v= and the Greeting Cards D: omg I died seeing those.
But that would be it, weird isn't it, for the girl who asked for such expensive stuff in the past to settle with only ideas quit easily, hell, I would be happy if I bought them myself even.

Ach, I rant.

This also goes to show I have stumbled my way into a Team Fortress 2 obsession, as has been become clear, especially to the people who know me IRL. To them I want to apologize for my obsessive behavior, especially my rants about (certain) characters.

That also brings me to thanking you guys for putting up with such a idiot such as myself.



God....turning 18, I do feel old.